WOWZERS

So the last week or so has been a whirlwind! I was offered a position on a Judges team in American Fork but my supervisor wanted a commitment that I would not leave when an opening came in Provo. Well actually she wanted a commitment I would stay until I leave for Law School next August. I spent a few agonizing days trying to figure out what to do. I am not sure I have prayed that long at night in a very long time! I went in to her office late last week and said although I was flattered and would love to do it, I could not commit to anything! To my suprise she said I could still train and that we would address the transfer thing when it became an issue. So that brings us to today! I was able to sit in on court this morning and learn a little about the process. Then this afternoon I was updating minutes from court and trying to not mess up too much!! Tomorrow is day 2 of the court training! YIKES What were they thinking? I am not smart enough for this!!!!

More Positive Out Look

I have realized lately that I need to be more positive about work and life in general! So in an effort to do this I decided to make a list of all the things I am grateful for! Here is what I have come up with in no particular order!
1. My family who listens to me cry and loves me no matter what!
2. My membership in Church, General Conference was so good last weekend!
3. Friends, Who even when I am grouchy are there for me and assure me everything will be ok!
4. My Job, I know I always talk about how much I hate things, BUT I am really grateful for the things I am learning and the connections I am making with Co-workers and others.
5. My roommates, They really are amazing!!
6. Comp Time, I love that I am able to take time off and relax!! I am going on a cruise to Mexico in a few weeks and even get to see Wicked while I am out there!
7. My cell phone ;) I know this sounds dumb but I don't know what I would do with out the ability to text and talk to people! Sometimes I screen calls, but for the most part I am really excited to talk to the people I love!
8. Scrapbooking, I recently made a goal to finish 20pgs before the Scrapbook Expo next Weekend! I have 5 more to go and I WILL MAKE IT!!
9. Email, especially at work it allows me to vent frustrations and be encouraged all at the same time!
10. Temples, I love the peace I feel just pulling in the parking lot! I have driven up to Mt. Timp on lunch a few different times and just sat and pondered.
This Is just a small part of the list! Thanks to everyone who has supported me and loved me and listened to me complain I am going to try and be better! Promise!

I SPEAK FROM EXPERIENCE

So I know it has again been FOREVER since I posted but I really do have a good explanation, I was once taught (via My mom and Thumper from Bambi) "If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything at all"!!! I have lived by that motto for a long time and let me tell you I can't take it any more! When I started in American Fork on Feb 11th I was reminded that I didn't enjoy my first few days in Provo either and was constantly told, "It will only get better"!! Well I am here to tell you all that is the biggest bunch of crap ever! (sorry for the use of crap, but in the alternative it is actually a mild term) ;) I have now put in over a month at the AF courthouse and well somethings have become bearable others have not! There have been many a moments when I question if it is really worth it, and many a nights I cry wishing it would end! The last week or so though have been the worst! I have been blammed for everything, told I was not working hard enough, and told that I needed to get a life! Today was one of the days when all I can do when I get home is talk to my mom and cry. I feel horrible complaining about the situation but I really am at a point I don't know what to do! I am not a quitter! I didn't quit when times were rough in life, and heck I finished a mission and even completed it with a 6 week "break" in California! If I can do that I should be able to survive and perserve through this right??? Well I sure do hope so, otherwise I am going to need somemore kleenex! Sorry everyone had to read this if you made it to the end you deserve a prize! ;)

Long Day

So today was my first day at the American Fork court! I got a little leak in the wall on the drive up but quickly stopped and tried to remain positive! I got to the courthouse and was led on a tour of the building. I put on a happy face all the while wishing I was anywhere but there! I thought I was just going to get my desk and be allowed to go to work, Boy was I wrong! The entire morning was spent with the Assistant Clerk of Court attached to my hip! Every move I made was scrutinized and critiqued. I got the raw end of the lunch hours and am the not so proud owner of the 11:30am until 12:30pm shift. I spent my morning entering documents that will eventually have to be filed and dealing with a micromanager of a supervisor. At 11:33 she freaked out because I was late for lunch ummm it is 3mins calm down! So I left and made it to my car before the wall (that lately has not be sturdy) came crashing down! I sat in the parking lot of Smith's down the street and cried for awhile and talked and texted and then realized I had to go back to work! I splashed some water on the eyes and hopped that no one would notice the red puffy eyes and headed back to hell opps I mean work! The afternoon brought many more interesting moments. Being asked a question, answering it and then having the same answer I had just given repeated to me! I swear it was like I was 5 and didn't know anything! The straw the broke the camels back was when I took a phone call and she put it on speaker phone so she could hear the other side and see how I did with the phones! Oh hell I have been aswering phones since I started IN JULY!!!!!!!!!!! I swear the entire day I felt like she thought I was brand new had never worked a day at the court in my entire life!! And treated me as such! I really hope that tomorrow will be better! Hell maybe she will teach me how to write an email or file a paper! ;)

Bittersweet

Friday was my last day at the Courthouse in Provo! I am really praying that this is only a temporary transfer up to American Fork, but I am not so sure about that! The "wall" came down hard the night before and the morning of. I texted Debbie on my way to work Friday and the only advice she gave me was not to cry! I made it through the day and as long as I didn't think about it the eyes stayed dry! At about 5:05 the first tear came and was quickly wiped away! It wasn't until my supervisor and I being the last people in the building ( A very common occurence) sat down at the end of the day to update my file that it really hit! She started the "final paperwork" and I started tearing up! It was a rough one for both of us! It totally sucks that this is happening but there really is nothing I can do to avoid it! So we finished the technicalities and that was it! I called Debbie on my way home and broke down completley! Here is a look back at some of the festivities of my last week in Provo! I am really going to miss everyone so much! They really are some of my best friends and I am never going to forget them!

I can Relax now For a Minute

Oh man so the LSAT is officially over and out of my life forever! I will NEVER take it again! I can finally breathe and not think about having to sit through another 4 hours! Now if only I was completley done with the entire process. I am frantically trying to finish all my applications and write a personal statement that will wow the admissions committees at about 10 different schools! I really hope that I did better this time around and I am trying to stay optimistic that I will get accepted to law school somewhere in the United States Of America! As of now I am really hoping for UNLV, University of Arizona, Utah, or one of the many So Cal schools I am applying to! So that will be my life for the next week or so. I have one week left in Provo at the courthouse and then I will be starting my long trek up to American Fork! YIKES!!! I am still not sure about this but I am going to "buck up" as Debbie reminded me to do this morning and get er done!

BREAK And Update

Ok so I need a much needed break from LSAT studying so I figured I would write a blog. It has been a little bit and well it was time! I take the LSAT on Saturday morning at 8am, so after that I will be returning a ton of calls and being a better friend then I have been this last little while. I guess the biggest news of the week is that as predicted I am transferring to American Fork. No joke I was at work for probably 2 hours when I got pulled in to "talk". They gave me a sob story about how the girl who should be going has a young son, lives in Nephi and carpools to Provo with her sister. I caved quick and said I would take one for the team and move, BUT they will be paying my mileage to and from AF until an opening comes in Provo and I can come back, or I leave for Law School which is much more likely. I wish I could say I was excited about the move but I would be lieing, I don't want to go but it was either step up and take it or be forced into it. I am really going to miss everything about Provo. The comp hours, the short travel time, the crazy and interesting people, and mostly my Friends I have made since I worked there. I remember when I started I didn't think I would ever have any friends at work (besides Marissa) but I have made some friends that I hope and know will always be there! Heck I may even work with some of them again following Law school. So yeah I start in American Fork on Monday the 11th and I am just going to try and remain positive and remember that everything happens for a reason!

Developments

Ok first an update, My Mom is doing good. She was released from the hospital on Tuesday night and it is good to have her home! She of course went back to work first thing Wednesday morning! She is a crazy bird! I have had a fun time hanging out and visiting! Work has been a very interesting situation and I swear that almost 75% of the freaking emloyees are bipolar and psychotic! I am not sure how many people know that I recently moved from the front counter at the court house to a judges team! I was super excited and worked on the team for a couple days before I left to come home. So when I decided to extend my time at home for the whole week I called my new supervisor and she was nice to let me extend. However she also informed me that there is an opening in the court in American Fork which I could possibly be forced to take. I am not really sure if I want to take it but I might not have a choice. Plus on top of that when I called my Supervisor she said that because of the opening in AF that voids my move to the judges team and I am officially back at the front counter when I get back to Provo. I am ok with it suprisingly. I was excited to work with a new team and get in court experience but alas it wasn't ment to be! Now I am hanging out in Fresno for a few more days and then will be shipped back to Utah at the butt crack of dawn Monday Morning! Fun times! Thank you to everyone for the thoughts, prayers, and for checking in on how my mom was doing! I am lucky to have such amazing friends!

chilling in the hospital

It has been awhile since my last post and during my development of new year resolutions I am dedicating myself to doing better about updating the blog! I am hanging out in California this weekend again with the whole famdamily! My mom has been in the hospital for a couple weeks now and I couldn't be in Utah anymore without seeing her! So I hopped on a plane after work on Friday and headed home! Mom is doing pretty good but the doctors are still fighting about surgery verses no surgery! I swear one of her doctors thinks he is god and he is allmighty and powerful and well he isn't! I want to kick him and tell him to shut up and sign the paper! So yeah I am chilling in Fresno at the hospital and will be heading back to Utah late tomorrow night unless things happen then I will go back sometime! It is times like this that I wonder why I am in Utah! But I know that Utah is where I am supposed to be!

Blogging On Location

Ok I made it to California late Thursday night or well more precisely EARLY Friday morning! Gotta love snow and holidays! De-iceing the plane is a process I will always remember! Oh man good times in tiny terminal E. So yeah I got home safe and sound and have been having a blast! Christmas prep was tons of fun, and being home with the family is always fun! I am not really looking forward to going back, but heck I am excited to see friends and get back to work! I am also excited to finish law school applications and see where I end up! Right now I am leaning towards Chapman in Orange County! But we will have to wait and see what Heavenly Father has in store for me! Ok I am off to bed! I will put pics of recent fun on tomorrow! Tomorrow is going to be fun! Shopping at the outlets and pedicures await me! YAHOO!

Update!!!

Ok So It has been way too long since I have actually sat down and blogged, work and law school applications have not been leaving a ton o free time! I swear I might as well live at the courthouse some days! Heck there is a couch and shower I am set! In hopes of updating everyone on the happenings in the life of me I am going to list some highlights!
1. I will still have a job come Jan. It was a little sketchy there but as of now they have not heard when the "time limited" positions have to be eliminated!
2. I am going home for Christmas I leave in less than 24hours and get to be home until the 30th!
3. We had our employee Christmas Party in one of the Courtrooms yesterday it was a lot of fun!
4. I love working at the courthouse! I have made so many amazing friends and I am learning so much! Everyday I learn a new thing!
5. I helped a nice young man get a divorce on Tuesday in 30mins! After he filed he left and got me a rose and Halmark Card, yeah I took his picture! I will post it when I bring my camera home! If only he wasnt 20, and deploying soon for the army! It is a huge joke at work and everyone makes fun of me and him and well I guess they had a Judge lined up to perform our wedding! Yeah Right!
6. I have a cold and it sucks! I am so tired of waking up coughing in the middle of the night!
7. I am working insane hours! I have worked at the courthouse now for about 4 months and I already have about 50 hours of comp time! Yeah I am a loser with no life!
8. I miss hanging out with friends who arent in Provo anymore especially at Christmas time!
9. I am slowly but surely finishing Christmas shopping! I will only have a few people to buy for in Cali!
10. I have Debbie for the gift exchange this year, I am Screwed! NO CLUE what to buy her!!!!!!!!
Ok that is all for tonight I am so sleepy and need to be up for work really early tomorrow! Yahoo!

Halloween At The Court House

End Of An Era

Disneyland

Better Late Than Never!

I realize that I have been a slacker at blogging lately so in hopes of catching everyone up on the happenings I am going to forgo trying to "Back Track Blog" and instead I am going to just add some slide shows of recent happenings! I will get back on track with the blogging I promise! Heck I don't want to be known as the loser who never blogs!

Yeah Disneyland!!!!

I am so excited I am leaving this afternoon to fly to So. Cal to meet the family for a disney trick or treat adventure! In past years I have been in school with midterms around this time and so I have always missed out! Not this year! I have my bags packed, my flight plans set out and I just need to get a good night sleep and then put in a few hours at work tomorrow and I am off! I don't know if I am more excited to go to Disneyland Or to see my family! They are both going to be fun adventures! I am taking my camera card empty and ready for picture magic! The next post will be from on Location at the Happiest Place on Earth!!!!!!! Oh and if anyone has requests text me and let me know I will do my best to fulfill them!

Viva Las Vegas!

I had a fun little jaunt to Vegas last weekend to visit Julia and hang out in Vegas! Oh the joys of working for the State we had Columbus day off, I am pretty sure it is the first time in my life I have not had to work or go to class on that day! It was extra exciting because I got to see Carrie and Daniel in St George and hang out oh how I miss them! During my trip I got to meet 2 different Elvis' (I don't know if that would be the proper plural use of Elvis but it sounds better than Elveses.) Also got to see the amazing decorations in the Bellagio gardens! So beautiful! I had such a fun time and can't wait to go back!

Step 1 complete!

So LSATS have been officially taken! I will have the results back on Oct. 22nd which just so happens to be the day after I get back from trick or treating at Disneyland with my family! I am so excited for a break and to see my family! I am not really sure how I did but I am trying not to think about it too much! Otherwise I will go crazy! I am just reminding myself that if I bombed I can take it again on Dec 1st not a big deal! Thanks to all my friends and family for the support and understanding! I know I was not the best at responding to calls and texts but I am in the process of catching up on everything! I am off to Vegas this weekend to hang out and take a break! My friend is trying to get tickets to Little Legends a show where little people dress up like celebrities! I hope it works out! I am also looking forward to seeing Carrie in St George hopefully things will work out!

Negligence in Blogging!

OK so Life is insane right now! I am trying to study for the LSAT which I am supposed to be taking in like 9days and I have been working insane hours! I am pretty sure I am spending more time at work then I am anywhere else! Lately it seems like I should just take a pillow and sleep there and then I can save on travel time! Last night I got home at like 10 and went to bed soon after just to wake up and head back to the courthouse! Don't get me wrong I love my job, and most of the people I work with, but I have moments when I miss being in school and being able to pick my class schedule and not have to worry about doing all the little work related tasks! But I wouldn't trade it for the world! I am learning a lot, and heck having some fun too! So the blog will be neglected for a little while longer and then once lsat hell is over on the 29th I will be back in business! Sorry To my friends and family who have been on the receiveing end of my lack of response to texts and phone calls give me a few days and I will be better!

The Day Has Come!

The day has finally arrived! I am offically roommates with Megan and Jerilyn! I am so excited and even though I always joked about selling my contract that would never have happened because I can not think of anyone else I would rather be roommates with nowadays! I am excited for all the fun times that we are going to have! Oh heck I am lucky to be their roommate! They are amazing!