I SPEAK FROM EXPERIENCE

So I know it has again been FOREVER since I posted but I really do have a good explanation, I was once taught (via My mom and Thumper from Bambi) "If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything at all"!!! I have lived by that motto for a long time and let me tell you I can't take it any more! When I started in American Fork on Feb 11th I was reminded that I didn't enjoy my first few days in Provo either and was constantly told, "It will only get better"!! Well I am here to tell you all that is the biggest bunch of crap ever! (sorry for the use of crap, but in the alternative it is actually a mild term) ;) I have now put in over a month at the AF courthouse and well somethings have become bearable others have not! There have been many a moments when I question if it is really worth it, and many a nights I cry wishing it would end! The last week or so though have been the worst! I have been blammed for everything, told I was not working hard enough, and told that I needed to get a life! Today was one of the days when all I can do when I get home is talk to my mom and cry. I feel horrible complaining about the situation but I really am at a point I don't know what to do! I am not a quitter! I didn't quit when times were rough in life, and heck I finished a mission and even completed it with a 6 week "break" in California! If I can do that I should be able to survive and perserve through this right??? Well I sure do hope so, otherwise I am going to need somemore kleenex! Sorry everyone had to read this if you made it to the end you deserve a prize! ;)