What To Do...

Ok so I know that I have previously talked about the judges team opening that I wasn't going to apply for. Well somehow I have an interview tomorrow at 12:30pm for the team! YIKES!!!! I can pull out tomorrow morning if I so choose and I am still about 70% sure I won't BUT there is always the 30% still there. I baked a TON of cookies this afternoon and the stress levels have gone down a bit! I will just wait and see what happens!

The Jury is back, and the verdict is in

Ok sorry to keep you waiting I thought I was going to get to bed early last night and instead tossed and turned until 12:15am wondering if I made the right decision! I have decided to return to Provo and work at the front counter until something opens on a judges team with a clerk that I can actually work with! It took me awhile today to confirm the feelings that I had been having and finally at like 3pm I told Sharon of my intent to transfer back and then called Lori in Provo to let her know! I know that I am giving up some great perks to go back the main one being in court experience, but I know that Heavenly Father has great things in store! Thanks to everyone for their support and for listening to me hash out my thoughts and even at times shed a few tears (OK I AM NOT A WALL, HAPPY NOW??!!! ;) I am not sure when I get to start back in Provo but as soon as I hear I will be posting about it!!! Love ya!
p.s. Sorry about the white on the blue background, hopefully this will be better know, pretty dark blue on light blue ;)

This decision is not as easy as I thought it would be

So I am not sure everyone knows but when I was transfered from Provo to American Fork back in February I was given a couple assurances. One regarding mileage and the other a promise that when an opening in Provo came that I would have the option to transfer back. Since February that is what has motivated me in times of stress and what has in some cases kept me from quitting. That being said I always thought that as soon as I heard there was an opening I would have no problem saying see ya to A.F. Wow was I wrong! As much crap as I have delt with and the amount of time I have spent crying about certain situations and people I thought for sure I had the answer. Well let me just tell you that ever since Thursday when I talked to Lori(the head honcho) about the fact there was an opening now I have been thinking, praying, and stressing. I have come to the realization that as much as I hated AF in the beginning it is a great experience that I have been given and has helped me in a lot of ways. I told Lori I wanted to really think this one through and asked if I could let her know Friday, of course she said to take as much time as I needed. Well Friday I still did not have a decision and she said I could have until Monday (tomorrow) to give my decision! YIKES I was hoping for a little longer but ok! So this weekend was spent helping Carrie and Daniel move back up from St George and having a nice 4 hour car drive all alone to think, pray and cry. It really is a win win situation and I just really hope that I make the right one. I am going to sleep on it "or try to sleep" and then tomorrow I will deliver the verdict. Stay tuned for the answer that I have decided on. YIKES

Recent and Upcoming Events

So I have a ton of pics to upload but I have to be at work at 7am tomorrow for court so I will have to add them tomorrow after work! Life has been crazy hectic lately. I made a quick trip up to Idaho last week for Sister Anderson's funeral in Shelley. She and her husband served in Indiana with me and she was an amazing lady! It was great to get to spend time with her family and some mission friends. I am sad that she passed away but I know we will see each other again someday! Work has been going ok Trevor's last day was Friday and I am officially the last of the under 30 club. I am lucky to have had Trevor around in AF to keep me sane and remind me that I am not there permanetly. He is off to Law School and with any luck I will be meeting up with him and his wife in a year! ;) I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about law school and wether or not I made the right choice to delay until Fall 2009. I felt good about it at the time, but was I just scared. I know that I am going to have a ton of doubts as it is a huge decision, but I am excited for the next few months and then submitting applications and seeing what happens! Maybe I will be a resident of California again (just not Fresno) ;) I am super excited because Tiffany and the kids are coming to Provo this weekend to hang out and visit! I am already making lists of things we can do! I am always up for visitors so everyone is invited! This Saturday Megan, Trent and I are running the Lavendar Days 5k in Mona. I am just hoping not to finish last, and not to die! I am also looking forward to my first 4th of July in Provo in a long time! We came out a few times when Karl and Debbie were at BYU but this year it will just be me (I think). Should be a fun time anyway! Well I am off to bed, but stay tuned for pics tomorrow and a more balanced blogging routine funny stuff has been happening at work, I just need to remember to blog about it!

WOWZERS

So the last week or so has been a whirlwind! I was offered a position on a Judges team in American Fork but my supervisor wanted a commitment that I would not leave when an opening came in Provo. Well actually she wanted a commitment I would stay until I leave for Law School next August. I spent a few agonizing days trying to figure out what to do. I am not sure I have prayed that long at night in a very long time! I went in to her office late last week and said although I was flattered and would love to do it, I could not commit to anything! To my suprise she said I could still train and that we would address the transfer thing when it became an issue. So that brings us to today! I was able to sit in on court this morning and learn a little about the process. Then this afternoon I was updating minutes from court and trying to not mess up too much!! Tomorrow is day 2 of the court training! YIKES What were they thinking? I am not smart enough for this!!!!

I SPEAK FROM EXPERIENCE

So I know it has again been FOREVER since I posted but I really do have a good explanation, I was once taught (via My mom and Thumper from Bambi) "If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything at all"!!! I have lived by that motto for a long time and let me tell you I can't take it any more! When I started in American Fork on Feb 11th I was reminded that I didn't enjoy my first few days in Provo either and was constantly told, "It will only get better"!! Well I am here to tell you all that is the biggest bunch of crap ever! (sorry for the use of crap, but in the alternative it is actually a mild term) ;) I have now put in over a month at the AF courthouse and well somethings have become bearable others have not! There have been many a moments when I question if it is really worth it, and many a nights I cry wishing it would end! The last week or so though have been the worst! I have been blammed for everything, told I was not working hard enough, and told that I needed to get a life! Today was one of the days when all I can do when I get home is talk to my mom and cry. I feel horrible complaining about the situation but I really am at a point I don't know what to do! I am not a quitter! I didn't quit when times were rough in life, and heck I finished a mission and even completed it with a 6 week "break" in California! If I can do that I should be able to survive and perserve through this right??? Well I sure do hope so, otherwise I am going to need somemore kleenex! Sorry everyone had to read this if you made it to the end you deserve a prize! ;)

Long Day

So today was my first day at the American Fork court! I got a little leak in the wall on the drive up but quickly stopped and tried to remain positive! I got to the courthouse and was led on a tour of the building. I put on a happy face all the while wishing I was anywhere but there! I thought I was just going to get my desk and be allowed to go to work, Boy was I wrong! The entire morning was spent with the Assistant Clerk of Court attached to my hip! Every move I made was scrutinized and critiqued. I got the raw end of the lunch hours and am the not so proud owner of the 11:30am until 12:30pm shift. I spent my morning entering documents that will eventually have to be filed and dealing with a micromanager of a supervisor. At 11:33 she freaked out because I was late for lunch ummm it is 3mins calm down! So I left and made it to my car before the wall (that lately has not be sturdy) came crashing down! I sat in the parking lot of Smith's down the street and cried for awhile and talked and texted and then realized I had to go back to work! I splashed some water on the eyes and hopped that no one would notice the red puffy eyes and headed back to hell opps I mean work! The afternoon brought many more interesting moments. Being asked a question, answering it and then having the same answer I had just given repeated to me! I swear it was like I was 5 and didn't know anything! The straw the broke the camels back was when I took a phone call and she put it on speaker phone so she could hear the other side and see how I did with the phones! Oh hell I have been aswering phones since I started IN JULY!!!!!!!!!!! I swear the entire day I felt like she thought I was brand new had never worked a day at the court in my entire life!! And treated me as such! I really hope that tomorrow will be better! Hell maybe she will teach me how to write an email or file a paper! ;)

Bittersweet

Friday was my last day at the Courthouse in Provo! I am really praying that this is only a temporary transfer up to American Fork, but I am not so sure about that! The "wall" came down hard the night before and the morning of. I texted Debbie on my way to work Friday and the only advice she gave me was not to cry! I made it through the day and as long as I didn't think about it the eyes stayed dry! At about 5:05 the first tear came and was quickly wiped away! It wasn't until my supervisor and I being the last people in the building ( A very common occurence) sat down at the end of the day to update my file that it really hit! She started the "final paperwork" and I started tearing up! It was a rough one for both of us! It totally sucks that this is happening but there really is nothing I can do to avoid it! So we finished the technicalities and that was it! I called Debbie on my way home and broke down completley! Here is a look back at some of the festivities of my last week in Provo! I am really going to miss everyone so much! They really are some of my best friends and I am never going to forget them!

I can Relax now For a Minute

Oh man so the LSAT is officially over and out of my life forever! I will NEVER take it again! I can finally breathe and not think about having to sit through another 4 hours! Now if only I was completley done with the entire process. I am frantically trying to finish all my applications and write a personal statement that will wow the admissions committees at about 10 different schools! I really hope that I did better this time around and I am trying to stay optimistic that I will get accepted to law school somewhere in the United States Of America! As of now I am really hoping for UNLV, University of Arizona, Utah, or one of the many So Cal schools I am applying to! So that will be my life for the next week or so. I have one week left in Provo at the courthouse and then I will be starting my long trek up to American Fork! YIKES!!! I am still not sure about this but I am going to "buck up" as Debbie reminded me to do this morning and get er done!

BREAK And Update

Ok so I need a much needed break from LSAT studying so I figured I would write a blog. It has been a little bit and well it was time! I take the LSAT on Saturday morning at 8am, so after that I will be returning a ton of calls and being a better friend then I have been this last little while. I guess the biggest news of the week is that as predicted I am transferring to American Fork. No joke I was at work for probably 2 hours when I got pulled in to "talk". They gave me a sob story about how the girl who should be going has a young son, lives in Nephi and carpools to Provo with her sister. I caved quick and said I would take one for the team and move, BUT they will be paying my mileage to and from AF until an opening comes in Provo and I can come back, or I leave for Law School which is much more likely. I wish I could say I was excited about the move but I would be lieing, I don't want to go but it was either step up and take it or be forced into it. I am really going to miss everything about Provo. The comp hours, the short travel time, the crazy and interesting people, and mostly my Friends I have made since I worked there. I remember when I started I didn't think I would ever have any friends at work (besides Marissa) but I have made some friends that I hope and know will always be there! Heck I may even work with some of them again following Law school. So yeah I start in American Fork on Monday the 11th and I am just going to try and remain positive and remember that everything happens for a reason!

Developments

Ok first an update, My Mom is doing good. She was released from the hospital on Tuesday night and it is good to have her home! She of course went back to work first thing Wednesday morning! She is a crazy bird! I have had a fun time hanging out and visiting! Work has been a very interesting situation and I swear that almost 75% of the freaking emloyees are bipolar and psychotic! I am not sure how many people know that I recently moved from the front counter at the court house to a judges team! I was super excited and worked on the team for a couple days before I left to come home. So when I decided to extend my time at home for the whole week I called my new supervisor and she was nice to let me extend. However she also informed me that there is an opening in the court in American Fork which I could possibly be forced to take. I am not really sure if I want to take it but I might not have a choice. Plus on top of that when I called my Supervisor she said that because of the opening in AF that voids my move to the judges team and I am officially back at the front counter when I get back to Provo. I am ok with it suprisingly. I was excited to work with a new team and get in court experience but alas it wasn't ment to be! Now I am hanging out in Fresno for a few more days and then will be shipped back to Utah at the butt crack of dawn Monday Morning! Fun times! Thank you to everyone for the thoughts, prayers, and for checking in on how my mom was doing! I am lucky to have such amazing friends!

Update!!!

Ok So It has been way too long since I have actually sat down and blogged, work and law school applications have not been leaving a ton o free time! I swear I might as well live at the courthouse some days! Heck there is a couch and shower I am set! In hopes of updating everyone on the happenings in the life of me I am going to list some highlights!
1. I will still have a job come Jan. It was a little sketchy there but as of now they have not heard when the "time limited" positions have to be eliminated!
2. I am going home for Christmas I leave in less than 24hours and get to be home until the 30th!
3. We had our employee Christmas Party in one of the Courtrooms yesterday it was a lot of fun!
4. I love working at the courthouse! I have made so many amazing friends and I am learning so much! Everyday I learn a new thing!
5. I helped a nice young man get a divorce on Tuesday in 30mins! After he filed he left and got me a rose and Halmark Card, yeah I took his picture! I will post it when I bring my camera home! If only he wasnt 20, and deploying soon for the army! It is a huge joke at work and everyone makes fun of me and him and well I guess they had a Judge lined up to perform our wedding! Yeah Right!
6. I have a cold and it sucks! I am so tired of waking up coughing in the middle of the night!
7. I am working insane hours! I have worked at the courthouse now for about 4 months and I already have about 50 hours of comp time! Yeah I am a loser with no life!
8. I miss hanging out with friends who arent in Provo anymore especially at Christmas time!
9. I am slowly but surely finishing Christmas shopping! I will only have a few people to buy for in Cali!
10. I have Debbie for the gift exchange this year, I am Screwed! NO CLUE what to buy her!!!!!!!!
Ok that is all for tonight I am so sleepy and need to be up for work really early tomorrow! Yahoo!

Halloween At The Court House

End Of An Era

Week 2 I've Made It This Far

I am already about half way through week 2 of working at the court house and I can honestly say I am suprised I have made it this far! I was ready to give up last Tuesday but after a lot of encouragement from my family and friends I am still pushing ahead. I don't give up that easily and it is going to take a lot for me to throw in the towel. I have learned a ton and am beginning to make friends at work. Now if I could just get over my fear of answering the phones, I don't want to get yelled at, swore at, and the thought of telling a person there is a warrant out for their arrest freaks me out! Heck maybe I will have to do what I did in the MTC Referral Center and act like I am taking calls! Ha ha Yeah I think That is the solution! Don't be suprised if You get a call from the Court house It is just me "Making and Answering Calls" ;)

First Day of Work

The first day of my job at the court house is over, and well I survived! I learned so much, and I am really not sure I retained it all! I guess tomorrow when I go and do it again we will see. I was officially sworn in as an Officer of the Court this morning and that was pretty exciting! I was not sure about everything earlier but as the night has gone on I have gotten more excited and I am changing my attitude! It's funny because when I interviewed I said that a lot of how you deal with repetitive assignments has to do with attitude and I am not remembering that! I am off to go read more papers and try and figure out insurance, I have no clue about what plans to choose! I am gonna need some serious help!

I'm a Big Kid Now... and I don't like it!!

Alright so the second interview this morning went very well. I was a little confused because at first it was like okay why do you want to work at the courthouse and then about 2minutes later it was, this is what you will be doing, you'll start here and move up, etc. So yeah after 15 minutes I left the interview with a job, a parking pass and a whole lot to think about! I start Monday at 8am and I am still kinda stunned and not sure what I was thinking. I came home this afternoon and did some extreme amount of cookie making to relieve some stress and take my mind off things! Oh man life is so crazy right now, and I am just trying to take one day at a time!

Random Happenings

1. Marela was my assistant Cookie maker! She did a great job dumping the stuff in! Sugar Free Oatmeal Craisin Cookies rock my world!

2. The highlight of a recent supermarket run was the pink butterfly cart. The picture would be better probably if I hadn't just run the cart into the curb while Tiffy was trying to get a picture! Marela is super sensitive about people laughing at her, even when they aren't.

3. The T-Shirt, everyone at work has been discussing this shirt since I got home. One of the funny old men at work wears it everyso often and I was lucky enough that he wore it while I was here!

4. The return of the Purse Man. He came around again selling his purses but this time he hung around for a long time! Mom had to run to the bank to get cash so he stuck around and visited, I was baking some cookies that afternoon and he kept following me around. It got to the point were some of my friends at work tried to convince us that we would make a cute couple! HELL NO!!! He is a nice guy but NO!!! I actually think he thought it was a great idea because when I said, I was going back to Utah and long distance relationships are not for me he grilled me about it! hahaha oh heck!!

Toothless Purse Man

This is Nikea, he comes in to work pretty often to sell his purses. Today when he came in Tiffany took a few pictures of him and me together. I am so glad I finally was able to get a picture of this dude! He sells his purses and candy bars all the time around town and can be seen outside of Walmart when he is not going to businesses. Today I asked if people ever mistook him for a preacher, and he said, "Oh you know the Mormons? They rode by me once on their bikes and said hello!" Do I know the Mormons? Yeah sounds familiar! Anyone need a new purse?