The Answer is...

Oh my freaking heck, today was the BIG day! It was the day I was going to ask BR out! I was freaking out all night and day! I woke up early spent some extra time in doing my hair, and picking out the perfect outfit! (I know I am retarded!) I had all day to think about this, seeing as how we don't have class together until 4and it goes until 5:15 and I was asking him after! So needless to say I had plenty of time to freak out! Thank you to all my friends who listened to me freak out via text message and responded so nicely! The time for class to end came, and I was just going to run away to my car, but knew I had to do this! Brad decided we should have a study group for the class we all have together, and so next thing you know I have BR's phone number! Score!!! BR and I were walking out together followed not to closely by Brad and one of the girl's in our class. I asked if he had plans for Saturday night and then said that a group of friends and I are going out and asked if he wanted to go! I have no clue the activity so I said either golfing or bowling or something, and he said "Yeah that sounds like fun!!!" Oh my goodness I was soooo excited! It took all that I had to not freak out! Debbie and Lisa of course called for the update, and Debbie texted like every 5 minutes during the class to ask if I had done it yet! Well I did it and now I am super duper excited! I am going shopping for a new outfit! ;) YEAH BABY!

What the?? Random tips!

So tomorrow I have tests in 2 different classes, and then I have the little detail of asking BR out for this weekend. I texted my friend Brad earlier to confirm a study group we had planned for tomorrow morning, and he said that he hadn't even started studying. I said the same and then his responses that follow are some of the most random things ever. For the sake of not missing anything I will just map out the conversation:
Brad: We can fail together!
Me: So true!
Brad: You've been too worried about asking BR out :) its ok I will coach you!
Me: You have no idea, I have been freaking out!
Brad: lol, Step 1. take a deep breath
Me: Ha ha thanks you are so smart!
Brad: Step 2. practice asking him out in the mirror
Me: For real? Does that work?
Brad: I have no idea, it might. step 3. be confident, tell the person you are asking that you turned down 8 people for this event!
Me:Oh my heck, where are you getting these tips?
Brad: and finally step 4 the most important practice kissing your pillow or arm :) Rarr!
Me: Ha ha Now I have heard it all!
Why did I ever involve this crazy kid in this! He was helpful in finding out BR didn't have a girlfriend, but the stuff that has followed is insane! First he growled at me for the entire walk out to the car, now the "tips" and more growling! Needless to say I will make sure to take a deep breath, and maybe some practicing has taken place in the mirror, but I am pretty sure that steps 3 and 4 are not going to be happening anytime soon! Tomorrow is the big day! I have class with BR from 4-5:15 so I am planning on asking him after class, or I am going to chicken out, and be a big loser!

Close but No Cigar!

On Friday night at the ward talent show I thought that maybe I had gotten out of the whole asking BR on a date. I was fine with it, no big deal I can postpone it no biggie! Well tonight at ward prayer when I said something to Megan about it not happening this weekend because I feel really bad about interfering with plans people have. Next thing you know she is on the phone leaving a message for Michelle! Michelle texted to let me know all systems are a go for Saturday, CRAP! There is NO WAY the scarf will be anywhere near done! I don't think I can go through with this! I think I am coming down with something, I am sure I will be better by say umm Sunday next week! ;) What am I going to wear, how am I going to ask him, what if he says no...??? The questions are endless running through my head!

I must have been out of my mind!

I must have been out of my mind last week when I told BR I would make him a scarf! I mean look at these pictures from when I was on my mission, the really jacked up one is my first ever attempt at trying to be crafty and make a scarf, the yellow and orange one turned out decent but I have completly forgotten how to crochet. Marissa came over tonight and helped me get BR's started. I am freaking out, I can not give him a piece of crap scarf, I am trying to impress him, not scare him away! I am thinking I am going to postpone asking him out until the scarf is done, so I am thinking probably in the year 2009! ;) Yep, I think it sounds like a great plan!!! I have called in reinforcements, I sent two rolls (i know that is not what they are called) of yarn with Marissa to West Jordan I am guessing her Mom should have it done before tomorrow afternoon! So... if all else fails I will at least be able to give BR a quality gift, even if I didn't make it! If anyone knows how to crochet, I may need some help, but I can almost guarante I am beyond help! It is going

to take a miracle! I would stay up late and work on it but Church is at 9am and I have a carfull of people who are

expecting me to get them there! I can't let them down! So I will have to work all day and night tomorrow and Monday and I might have a row done! ;)

Good News and Bad News

So today was the big day that I was going to find out if a certain someone (BR) has a girlfriend. Well I am happy to report that he does not! That is the good news! The bad news is that now I actually have to ask him out! I am not sure I can do this! Confession: I have honestly only been on like 4 dates my entire life. I am such a loser I know, don't think less of me because of it. In high school we always just hung out with a huge group and there was not as much breaking off. Then in Hawaii it was like 5 girls to every guy at church so we again just did group stuff. Needless to say I am pathetic and a huge loser! Now I am going to have to get the courage to ask someone I really like out, I have probably never actually liked someone as much as I like BR! What if he says no, then I have the rest of the semester in class with him! Oh my goodness I need the paper bag! ;) I really am pathetic!