And then there was 1...Or will it be 2?

So I have officially completed the first 2 years of law school. Whew...that was fun :) I technically have 1 year left and then next July I will sit for and hopefully pass the Bar Examine! However, with all that has been going on with my Law School's accreditation, I have looked into and applied to transfer to other Law Schools. My list of schools is not long, but it is geographically diverse. My top 3 choices are in Louisiana, Oklahoma, and Michigan. The major issue with my attempt to transfer this late in the game is that most schools will require I take at least 1 semester of units over again if not my entire 2 L year. I know everyone thinks law school gets easier as you go along, but trust me 2L year has been (and probably will be) the WORST year of my life! (k so maybe that is a tad dramatic . . . but you get the point.) I am still figuring out my life and what I should do. Thank you to all of my friends for the texts, phone calls and support. I appreciate your support more than you'll ever know! I have a lot going for me as far as staying goes, I was nominated and elected as SBA President for next year, I am the Technical Editor of a Law Journal, I am close to family and know the system and love the schedule of classes I have for next year. However, I have this nagging feeling regarding what my future holds if I graduate from a school that was stripped of its ABA approval while I was a student. I did receive good news this week that regardless of what happens, I will be able to sit for the Utah Bar, but is that too little too late?! On a brighter note, I am heading up to Fresno tomorrow after work for the weekend, and I have never been more excited to see fields, cows, and foothills then I am right now!

Well....This is Not Looking Good

Mid-Dead Week leading up to finals, and Boom....This happens!

I am trying to not think too much about it and to focus on my finals, but I would be lying if I said that I am not freaking out! I am not sure what I am going to do yet, but I may get the "great" experience of transferring mid law school career or transferring as a 1L and having to repeat this entire year of classes. I am really happing not to have to do the latter. As much as I love law school I do not enjoy Con Law, and Biz Orgs enough to have to relive them over again!

Please know that I love all of you, and once this craziness is all over I will look forward to hanging out, laughing, and catching up on all ya'lls lives!

<3 You!

Delirious

delirious |diˈli(ə)rēəs|
adjective
in an acutely disturbed state of mind resulting from illness or intoxication* and characterized by restlessness, illusions, and incoherence of thought and speech.
*AKA Lack of Sleep

So I would first like to point out that I modified the definition above. (No need for legal action on "stealing" the definition.)
Attention Blogging friends and family... Law School will do crazy things to a person like make them change their facebook status from "in a relationship" to "engaged" and then decide to post a picture of a nice shiny diamond ring.



Alas I am not engaged, and if I was I would have called you Mom :) Rest assured I will for sure make up for this debacle in the future and that when I really do get engaged I will have a notary public attest to it as a witness! For now I am engaged to Finals, and the "joy" they bring into my life cannot be put into words! I look forward to December 15th when I will be done with my last final and 1/2 way through this law school adventure! Also as soon as I reactivate my facebook from this finals hiatus I have imposed on myself I will fix all the problems that I have created :) Until then...I am sorry for getting all your hopes up!!!!
Love you all & as soon as this finals craziness is over maybe we can hang out! Or at least I will return some phone calls!

Melissa

So You Want to Go to Law School

Sunshine on a cloudy day!!!! Thankful to awesome friends who shared this while I was having an emotional breakdown in the library this week! Laughing so hard people can't realize that you have actually been crying=AMAZING :)

Public Service Announcement

This public service announcement is brought to you courtesy of all law students, people who are stressed, and heck just about any person who is normal...

When you are verifying a person's identity for a purchase and ask to see their drivers license, it is not appropriate to do a double take and then say..."You look much happier in your picture."
There could be a number of reasons why the person looks happier in the drivers license picture, for example...
1. It could have been a nice July day in Fresno close to that persons birthday and all they had on their mind was hanging out with their family.
2. Now that person could be hundreds of miles away from that family and have just spent 8 plus hours on a Saturday at the library reading Constitutional Law and not having a clue what it means.
3. That person might be having to show their drivers license because their credit card number somehow has been hijacked and their account is frozen pending an investigation into $105 being charged at a Walmart in Texas.
4. That person just wasn't in the mood to smile, or was thinking about all the things on her to do list.
5. Heck, Insert anything here, it is just not a good idea to EVER say this!

Thank you again on behalf of all normal/stressed/emotionally unstable people of the world.
My name is Melissa...and I support this message.

Someday...

Lately I have been thinking a lot about things I wish I could be doing instead of law school. So in an effort to remember them when this experience finally ends, and also to take a break from the endless homework that somehow seems to be doubling I thought I would write a blog. So with no further delay here is my list of things I look forward to doing someday!
1. I can Sleep without wondering if I can afford to spend the time sleeping instead of reading.
2. I will be a friend who is not such a loser, who won't forget birthdays, who will be able to talk on the phone without having to leave the library, and who will actually be able to attend important events and milestones in my friends lives.
3. I will be able to take a vacation, and visit my family and not have to make a list of all the books I need to bring home with me.
4. I will be able to date, and not pay for it for the rest of the week
5. I will be able to show my appreciation for the love and support my friends and family have shown me, especially for putting up with my wackness and loserness.
6. Blog more often (I am going to work on this one in the present because I think it will be therapeutic for me. I might suck for ya'll but I will be more peaceful. :) Please refer back to #5)
7. I can go see a movie in a movie theater with a good friend.
8. I will build "the wall" back up and not be so emotional.
9. I will get to sleep in on the weekends.
10. I will be a lawyer and this will all be worth it!
Until then... Thank you to my friends and family for putting up with me, for being patient, and for your love! I am sorry for being a loser and missing important events and not returning phone calls and text messages, and for not being there for you when you need me! I love you all and I promise SOMEDAY I will make up for all of it!

I Concur!

Finals time is here again! Yeehaw :) Enjoy this list, but then take the LSAT and go to lawschool! Heck If I can do this anyone can do this :)

Update

So I realized today that it has been A LONG TIME since the last blog and so much has happened! I survived round 1 of law school finals and did decent! There is always room for improvement and this semester is a whole new ball game! I spent Christmas break at home in Fresno with the family and made a very quick but amazing trip to Utah! School has started back up and I am one week away from Spring Break, which also signals the half way point of this semester which is nuts!!!!! It seems like it goes fast when I want it to go slow and vise versa. I am loving the experience (even though I sometimes don't portray that in texts and phone calls!) Oh and exciting news of the last few days is that I have been approved for the externship with Judge Davis at the Courthouse, so it looks like I will be back in Provo for a few months come June! Other than that I will continue my residence at the ULV Library with my casebooks, and supplements! Whoever invented the Examples and Explanations deserves a cookie! :)

AHHHHHHHHHH

So Today at 5pm Pacific Standard Time I will begin my first Law School Final in Torts! But ready or not, here it comes! I wrote a little poem in honor of the event.
Roses are red, violets blue, law school finals make me wonder about swine flu! :) Yeah as you can see my creative juices are GONE! :) hahaha I will have a better poem once December 18th rolls around and I am on "vacation" until the 11th of January!!!!!

Law School Update

Oh my goodness! I can not believe that I am already more than half way through the first semester of law school! I am happy to report that I am not crying as often as I did at the beginning and I have learned that although this is hard I can do it! As for the bad news, well let's just say it is a good thing I have thick hair so I can compensate for the loss ;) I am managing to stay afloat and even have made time for social events! I really miss Utah and wish I was there at least once a day, but I know that Law School is only temporary! There is a quote that says "Law School is a marathon not a sprint, so pace yourself!" I am not going to lie I used to hate this quote and still am not as fond of it as others, but it is true! I wish law school was only like a 5k but alas three years equals 26.2 miles! ;) So... I figured that I would post a few pictures of the fun times that are law school students outside of the classroom and library! I should add the disclaimer that yes there is alcohol, but no I am not drinking it :) So enjoy these pictures and expect an update in the near future of some family and friend visits to the law school hermit (me)

YEAH YEAH I KNOW!

Ok so I realize that I have been really bad at blogging and well I would say that I would get better but honestly at this point I can't make any promises that I am not sure I will carry through with! I would hate to make a contract and not be able to follow through with it thereby creating a breach! I will say that I recently made a big time purchase of a new computer and once it arrives I will post all sorts of fun pictures from my summer bucket list! So at least you will have something to look forward to! Until then I thought I would share a little list that one of my friends sent to me this morning! Enjoy!
You Know You're In Law School When:
*you consider dropping out every hour, but after that first semester, you realized you were already in too much debt to be anything other than a lawyer.
*the drama in your life rivals that of high school
*you can't remember if you decided to go to law school because you wanted to help people and make a difference in the world or because you hate yourself.
*you can name, without hesitation, at least three people who make you want to throw things when you see them raise their hands in class.
*you have nicknames for the class members you dislike most, because of course, you’ve never actually spoken to them.
*Your breakfast consists of a coke on the way to class. (side not my drink of choice is diet cherry pepsi)
*You wear the same pair of jeans for 13 days straight (without washing them)
*You spend more time in the law library than you do at your apartment
*You are single handidly keeping the local pizza place in business.
I am sure I will be adding to this list as time goes on! But for now, I am going to bed, and before midnight even! Tonight is a great night! :)

annoyed

Dear new roommate that is replacing Megan,
Is Moving your stuff in at 1130PM and turning on the air conditioner really the best way to start off our time together? I would say hell no! Now would you please stop banging into my door so that I can go to sleep! Oh and sorry if I hit your door at 745am when I have to leave for work!
Love your not so excited roommate!
Melissa
P.s. I would have been more than willing to have helped you move tomorrow at a decent time!

What was I thinking!!???

So the ward had a dinner/activity on Saturday night at Aspen Grove up in the canyon. I debated about going but finally decided it would be good to support the ward, and Krishna is on the activity committee and I felt bad making her go alone. So we get there and they luckily serve something other than red meat (which made me very happy since last time, I went there for a dinner I couldn't eat red meat for like 6 months after!) So after the meal they start the "activity". It begins with the bishop and his wife telling the story of how they met, fell in love and got married. GAG! Then they announce that we will be playing "Singled Out". Now growing up in my teen years I watched some episodes of this game on MTV and compared to the rest of my ward, who don't even know what MTV is I am a pro. (Or so I thought!) The game begins and the guy they brought in for the game is my roommates ex boyfriend! Realizing that it would not be a good idea for me to go out with him I decide I will "throw" the game. The questions start and I decide it is too obvious to leave on the first question, so I answer that how I think he would answer. Right answer and I am still in the game. Then from there my plan was to answer opposite as I thought he would. 3 questions later it is down to 5 girls and somehow I am contestant number 4. So the individual questions begin. #1 Sing me your favorite love song (which btw only one of us would do and she sang every one's songs. #2. What would be your ideal date including me: The losing answer was hiking. My answer.... "Ummmm go to a movie and play mario kart" <-- I was going for the I'm lame and don't like to talk. Dang still in the game. #3. If you were a dessert what would you be and why? The losing answer Apple Pie. My answer "I would be a fudge brownie with nuts because I am crazy." Ummm yeah got that right crazy for still being involved in this lame game. Finally question #4. If you met me on the street give me your best pick up line: I knew I was in trouble at this point since I know only 1 pick up line thanks to Jerilyn. So contestant 1 goes and comes up with " Are you from Tennessee? Cause you're the only 10 I see!" OK so maybe I am going to lose! So then comes my turn and I drop "Are those space pants you're wearing? Because your bum is out of this world!" Oh man the bishop covered his face and I just started praying he really liked Tennessee. NOPE Despite all my efforts I won the game. So Monday at 7pm I will be enjoying Brick Oven with Derek. yippee! ;) Moral of this story: Next time make it obvious and leave on question 1. No need to be cocky and think I know the ins and outs of dating game shows since I obviously do not.

25 Random Facts

1. I was born and raised in Central California. Atwater, Merced, and Fresno
2. My first airplane ride was when I was a sophmore in High School and I went to Provo to visit Debbie, Karl and Lisa.
3. I lived in Hawaii from August 2001-May 2002 while I attended Hawaii Pacific University and miss a lot about living there!
4. I have run 3 5Ks races and am looking forward to doing more.
5. I served a mission in the Indiana Indianapolis Mission and loved ever minute of it!
6. I love brushing my teeth
7. I was sent home for 6 weeks from Indiana on Medical Leave and returned less a galbladder.
8. I have an abnormal addicition to Chips and Salsa
9. I love Disneyland and would love to work there!
10. I have worked at the Courthouse since July 2007.
11. I have worked at both the American Fork and Provo Courthouses.
12. I really did consider not going back to Provo when the opportunity was given but have not regreted my decision at all.
13. I am going to Law School in August 2009 but have no clue where yet.
14. I applied to 15 different law schools in 8 different States.
15. My favorite colors are orange, yellow, and purple.
16. My jeep isn't 4 wheel drive and I have been mocked recently for this reason.
17. I enjoy talking with a Minnesotan Accent. Don't ya Know
18. Mario Kart Wii rocks my world.
19. I bake when I get stressed, however I don't eat the stuff I bake.
20. I like scrapbooking and am finishing my mission pics.
21. I would love to figure out how to digital scrapbook.
22. I have always wanted to be a Lawyer, I debated a few times, but the desire has never gone away.
23. I love making flowcharts, and to do lists. I find satisfaction in crossing stuff off my list as I finish them.
24. I have a phobia of rollerskating and refuse to do it. Thanks to a tragic incident in 3rd grade skate party.
25. I gave up caffeine and Soda in general for Lent last year! (Yeah I know I'm not Catholic just decided it was a good time to do it). ;)

Latest News

Ok So I really should be in bed right now sleeping but alas I am not! Things are going great. I am loving being back in Provo and working with friends again!!! I recently made a quick weekend trip out to california to visit Mickey Mouse, and will be going again in October and trick or treating with the family and visiting some law schools while I am out there! I am really cracking down and getting serious about law school applications. I have a goal of having everything submitted by Jan. 1,2009 so hopefully I can do it!The hardest thing for me is the personal statement, I start writing and then just block up! but I am going to do it!!!!!!!! I will upload pics over the weekend!!! Love you all!

Night With The Osmonds and The Mo Tab!

Last night Marissa and I spent the evening at temple square enjoying the Pionner Day concert put on by the Mo Tab and the Osmond Family!!! My mom got tickets in the lottery system and was going to come out with my dad for the show, but at the last minute they had to change their plans! I was really sad but decided to use the tickets anyway! It was a really great show! It was a good break from the thinking and allowed Marissa and Me a chance to hang out and visit! Lots of stuff happening this week, with the interview, court, early morning meetings, and my birthday! Yahoo!!!!!!!!

What To Do...

Ok so I know that I have previously talked about the judges team opening that I wasn't going to apply for. Well somehow I have an interview tomorrow at 12:30pm for the team! YIKES!!!! I can pull out tomorrow morning if I so choose and I am still about 70% sure I won't BUT there is always the 30% still there. I baked a TON of cookies this afternoon and the stress levels have gone down a bit! I will just wait and see what happens!

The Jury is back, and the verdict is in

Ok sorry to keep you waiting I thought I was going to get to bed early last night and instead tossed and turned until 12:15am wondering if I made the right decision! I have decided to return to Provo and work at the front counter until something opens on a judges team with a clerk that I can actually work with! It took me awhile today to confirm the feelings that I had been having and finally at like 3pm I told Sharon of my intent to transfer back and then called Lori in Provo to let her know! I know that I am giving up some great perks to go back the main one being in court experience, but I know that Heavenly Father has great things in store! Thanks to everyone for their support and for listening to me hash out my thoughts and even at times shed a few tears (OK I AM NOT A WALL, HAPPY NOW??!!! ;) I am not sure when I get to start back in Provo but as soon as I hear I will be posting about it!!! Love ya!
p.s. Sorry about the white on the blue background, hopefully this will be better know, pretty dark blue on light blue ;)

This decision is not as easy as I thought it would be

So I am not sure everyone knows but when I was transfered from Provo to American Fork back in February I was given a couple assurances. One regarding mileage and the other a promise that when an opening in Provo came that I would have the option to transfer back. Since February that is what has motivated me in times of stress and what has in some cases kept me from quitting. That being said I always thought that as soon as I heard there was an opening I would have no problem saying see ya to A.F. Wow was I wrong! As much crap as I have delt with and the amount of time I have spent crying about certain situations and people I thought for sure I had the answer. Well let me just tell you that ever since Thursday when I talked to Lori(the head honcho) about the fact there was an opening now I have been thinking, praying, and stressing. I have come to the realization that as much as I hated AF in the beginning it is a great experience that I have been given and has helped me in a lot of ways. I told Lori I wanted to really think this one through and asked if I could let her know Friday, of course she said to take as much time as I needed. Well Friday I still did not have a decision and she said I could have until Monday (tomorrow) to give my decision! YIKES I was hoping for a little longer but ok! So this weekend was spent helping Carrie and Daniel move back up from St George and having a nice 4 hour car drive all alone to think, pray and cry. It really is a win win situation and I just really hope that I make the right one. I am going to sleep on it "or try to sleep" and then tomorrow I will deliver the verdict. Stay tuned for the answer that I have decided on. YIKES

Houston We have a problem

Ok so I can't find my camera cord to upload all the fun pictures from recent events! I am going to find it Saturday if it takes me all day, and upload a bunch of pics! I enjoyed the visit of Tiffany and the kids and Lisa and Briggs the little that we hung out! It was so fun, and I hope that more people will come to visit me soon! I found out that because I work for the State I offically qualify for the government rate at hotels which is a nice perk guess I can't quit any more! ;) We went to the Zoo, went swimming EVERYDAY to the point that Marela's toes were bleeding and just had a fun time being together! Also I got to go down to Lavendar Days and do the 5K with Megan and Trent and then I did the Freedom Fest 5K too! Yeah note to self, leave more time in between runs! ;) I am surviving at work. Some days are still better than others, but it looks like I need to get used to it, since things have happened and it doesnt look as though I will be headed back to Provo anytime soon! But YOU NEVER KNOW!!! I got to hang out with Romina the other day which was and is always so much fun! I miss the good old days of chilling in her room watching random YOUTUBE videos before bed!!! Oh the memories!!! Well I am off to bed I have another early day tomorrow 3 in a row this week! I have a full set of lugage under my eyes right about now! But it is almost the weekend!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recent and Upcoming Events

So I have a ton of pics to upload but I have to be at work at 7am tomorrow for court so I will have to add them tomorrow after work! Life has been crazy hectic lately. I made a quick trip up to Idaho last week for Sister Anderson's funeral in Shelley. She and her husband served in Indiana with me and she was an amazing lady! It was great to get to spend time with her family and some mission friends. I am sad that she passed away but I know we will see each other again someday! Work has been going ok Trevor's last day was Friday and I am officially the last of the under 30 club. I am lucky to have had Trevor around in AF to keep me sane and remind me that I am not there permanetly. He is off to Law School and with any luck I will be meeting up with him and his wife in a year! ;) I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about law school and wether or not I made the right choice to delay until Fall 2009. I felt good about it at the time, but was I just scared. I know that I am going to have a ton of doubts as it is a huge decision, but I am excited for the next few months and then submitting applications and seeing what happens! Maybe I will be a resident of California again (just not Fresno) ;) I am super excited because Tiffany and the kids are coming to Provo this weekend to hang out and visit! I am already making lists of things we can do! I am always up for visitors so everyone is invited! This Saturday Megan, Trent and I are running the Lavendar Days 5k in Mona. I am just hoping not to finish last, and not to die! I am also looking forward to my first 4th of July in Provo in a long time! We came out a few times when Karl and Debbie were at BYU but this year it will just be me (I think). Should be a fun time anyway! Well I am off to bed, but stay tuned for pics tomorrow and a more balanced blogging routine funny stuff has been happening at work, I just need to remember to blog about it!

Happy Mother's Day

This Mother's Day I couldn't be home in California with my family! However I did want to take a second and show appreciation to my mom and to my sisters who are great examples to me of what being a mom is all about!

Debbie is a great mom to Conner and Tanner! She loves them unconditionally and would do anything for them! I admire her patience and her ability to not let the little things bother her!! I love you Debbie!!

Next is my Grandma! Granny is a strong willed lady! She has been living with my family since my grandpa died and her alzheimers has gotten worse. What I will always remember about granny is visiting her while I was growing up and seeing her work ethic! Up until she moved down to Fresno she and my grandpa would wake up every morning and deliver newspapers, then go home sleep for a few hours and be out mowing lawns around town.

My Mom!! I do not even know where to begin explaining how much my Mom means to me or how much she has done for me! My mom is my hero!! My mom is the person I can go to when I have a bad day and she will listen and understand! My mom is there for me when I need someone for medical advice, no matter the time day or night! My mom is there to encourage me when I think I can't do something and to have faith in me when I sometimes lack faith in myself! My mom loves me uncoditionally and would do anything for me and for my family! My mom is a role model of unconditional love for everyone! I am so lucky she is my mom!! I love you Mommy!

Lisa is a great mom! She has so many qualities that I admire and hope to one day have if and when I become a mom! I love you Lisa!!

Last, BUT certainly not least Tiffy! Tiffy is a great mommy to Lella and Gage! She loves them both and would do anything for them! She is a great example to me and I love her!!!! HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY YA'LL I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!
p.s. Presents will be coming (Hopefully around Memorial Day)

THE MOTHER LOVIN' FUNSHIP

Dear Debbie, Yes of course I remember the amazing week I spent with you traveling the Ocean between San Diego and Mexico! How could I forget!!! I have been in the process of making the slide show of all the fun times and now that it is done, here is the much anticipated blog about Mexico!!! P.s. I refuse to pay the difference in gas you are the one who didn't stop in Huntington Beach and fill up hahahahaah! Love, Melissa
p.p.s I was being treated like a darelict, like I didn't have money they wouldn't open my bottle of wine! I mean I HAVE LOTS OF MONEY and I am being treated like I am poor! hahah Oh man that lady at dinner was CRAZY ;)

MEXICO

Here is a sampling of pictures from our crusie to Mexico!!!!!!!! I had so much fun! We went to see wicked on Saturday night! Met up with Debbie on Sunday and left San Diego for Mexico on Monday! Cabo was by far my favorite even though we had a little run in with some Jelly fish! Windex works for everything!

ABC's About Me!!!!

This is an email that has been sent around at work recently so I decided if I was going to do it I might as well include it on the good old blog! Plus Debbie has been bugging me about the fact I have not been updating so tonight is going to be update the blog night!!!
A is for age: 26 Years, 9 Months and 8 days (give or take a day or so)
B is for beer of choice: Apple Beer all the way!
C is for career right now: Deputy Court Clerk (but not one with seniority)
D is for your dog's name: No way NO PETS but the Family dog is Sandy (I think)
E is for essential item you use everyday: Toothpaste, I love brushing
F is for favorite TV shows at the moment: Grey's Anatomy, American Idol, Survivor
G is for favorite game: Four Square ;)
H is for birth Home town: Merced, California
I is for instruments you play: Ummm I played Clarinet in elementary school, and I can play A LITTLE piano
J is for favorite juice: Pineapple
K is for whose butt you'd like to kick: That is for me to know and no one to find out
L is for the last place you ate: Hummmm.... Well I didnt get to leave for lunch today but we had Quiznos delivered.
M is for marriage: I hope it happens some day
N is for your full name: Melissa Marie Noyes
O is for overnight hospital stay: Yes, when I had my appendix out. Took a few days to decided what the doctors wanted to do.
P is for people you were with today/recently: Megan and the peeps in American Fork
Q is for recent quote: "It's the fun-ship the fun-ship, the Mother Lovin' Fun-Ship!"
R is for Biggest Regret: Volunterring to move work locations and not seeing how things would have panned out.
S is for status: Chipper
T is for time you woke up today: 6:30 a.m. wish tomorrow would be the same but gotta be at work at 7am so have to leave at 6:30ish.
U is for underwear:Ummm... yeah I wear them
V is for vegetable that you love:ALMOST everything (No onions, tomatoes, bellpeppers, lima beans, avocados, ok so there is more than I thought!)
W is for worst habit: Biting my nails, recently cusing I am trying to stop!
X is for x-rays you've had: My wrist twice, ankle once, thumb once. Think that is all
Y is for yummy food you ate today: Brocolli soup from Quiznos YUMMM!!!
Z is for zodiac sign: Leo
OK DEBBIE ONE UPDATE DOWN A FEW MORE TO GO

Viva La Mexico!

I really should be sleeping right now but I am so excited! In like 4 days I will be on my way to California with my friends Jessie and Jen from work at the courthouse in Provo! We are going to see wicked Saturday night in LA!!!!!! I am so excited we got amazing seats for really good prices! Then sometime during the weekend Debbie is driving down from Fresno to meet up with us and we are going on a crusie to Mexico! Our ship leaves San Diego on Monday afternoon and we will be gone until Saturday morning! I can not even begin to explain my excitness levels!!!! I am excited to get out of Provo for a few days and burn in the Mexican Sun!!!!!! ;) I am going well prepared to try and prevent sunburns and to treat them since it is almost impossible to keep from burning! Case in point, I went to a park a couple weeks ago to read a book after church, I was there for 45 mins and was pretty red for a few days!! So I am pretty much screwed hahaha WHATEVER I am going to Mexico!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOWZERS

So the last week or so has been a whirlwind! I was offered a position on a Judges team in American Fork but my supervisor wanted a commitment that I would not leave when an opening came in Provo. Well actually she wanted a commitment I would stay until I leave for Law School next August. I spent a few agonizing days trying to figure out what to do. I am not sure I have prayed that long at night in a very long time! I went in to her office late last week and said although I was flattered and would love to do it, I could not commit to anything! To my suprise she said I could still train and that we would address the transfer thing when it became an issue. So that brings us to today! I was able to sit in on court this morning and learn a little about the process. Then this afternoon I was updating minutes from court and trying to not mess up too much!! Tomorrow is day 2 of the court training! YIKES What were they thinking? I am not smart enough for this!!!!

More Positive Out Look

I have realized lately that I need to be more positive about work and life in general! So in an effort to do this I decided to make a list of all the things I am grateful for! Here is what I have come up with in no particular order!
1. My family who listens to me cry and loves me no matter what!
2. My membership in Church, General Conference was so good last weekend!
3. Friends, Who even when I am grouchy are there for me and assure me everything will be ok!
4. My Job, I know I always talk about how much I hate things, BUT I am really grateful for the things I am learning and the connections I am making with Co-workers and others.
5. My roommates, They really are amazing!!
6. Comp Time, I love that I am able to take time off and relax!! I am going on a cruise to Mexico in a few weeks and even get to see Wicked while I am out there!
7. My cell phone ;) I know this sounds dumb but I don't know what I would do with out the ability to text and talk to people! Sometimes I screen calls, but for the most part I am really excited to talk to the people I love!
8. Scrapbooking, I recently made a goal to finish 20pgs before the Scrapbook Expo next Weekend! I have 5 more to go and I WILL MAKE IT!!
9. Email, especially at work it allows me to vent frustrations and be encouraged all at the same time!
10. Temples, I love the peace I feel just pulling in the parking lot! I have driven up to Mt. Timp on lunch a few different times and just sat and pondered.
This Is just a small part of the list! Thanks to everyone who has supported me and loved me and listened to me complain I am going to try and be better! Promise!

I SPEAK FROM EXPERIENCE

So I know it has again been FOREVER since I posted but I really do have a good explanation, I was once taught (via My mom and Thumper from Bambi) "If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say anything at all"!!! I have lived by that motto for a long time and let me tell you I can't take it any more! When I started in American Fork on Feb 11th I was reminded that I didn't enjoy my first few days in Provo either and was constantly told, "It will only get better"!! Well I am here to tell you all that is the biggest bunch of crap ever! (sorry for the use of crap, but in the alternative it is actually a mild term) ;) I have now put in over a month at the AF courthouse and well somethings have become bearable others have not! There have been many a moments when I question if it is really worth it, and many a nights I cry wishing it would end! The last week or so though have been the worst! I have been blammed for everything, told I was not working hard enough, and told that I needed to get a life! Today was one of the days when all I can do when I get home is talk to my mom and cry. I feel horrible complaining about the situation but I really am at a point I don't know what to do! I am not a quitter! I didn't quit when times were rough in life, and heck I finished a mission and even completed it with a 6 week "break" in California! If I can do that I should be able to survive and perserve through this right??? Well I sure do hope so, otherwise I am going to need somemore kleenex! Sorry everyone had to read this if you made it to the end you deserve a prize! ;)

Long Day

So today was my first day at the American Fork court! I got a little leak in the wall on the drive up but quickly stopped and tried to remain positive! I got to the courthouse and was led on a tour of the building. I put on a happy face all the while wishing I was anywhere but there! I thought I was just going to get my desk and be allowed to go to work, Boy was I wrong! The entire morning was spent with the Assistant Clerk of Court attached to my hip! Every move I made was scrutinized and critiqued. I got the raw end of the lunch hours and am the not so proud owner of the 11:30am until 12:30pm shift. I spent my morning entering documents that will eventually have to be filed and dealing with a micromanager of a supervisor. At 11:33 she freaked out because I was late for lunch ummm it is 3mins calm down! So I left and made it to my car before the wall (that lately has not be sturdy) came crashing down! I sat in the parking lot of Smith's down the street and cried for awhile and talked and texted and then realized I had to go back to work! I splashed some water on the eyes and hopped that no one would notice the red puffy eyes and headed back to hell opps I mean work! The afternoon brought many more interesting moments. Being asked a question, answering it and then having the same answer I had just given repeated to me! I swear it was like I was 5 and didn't know anything! The straw the broke the camels back was when I took a phone call and she put it on speaker phone so she could hear the other side and see how I did with the phones! Oh hell I have been aswering phones since I started IN JULY!!!!!!!!!!! I swear the entire day I felt like she thought I was brand new had never worked a day at the court in my entire life!! And treated me as such! I really hope that tomorrow will be better! Hell maybe she will teach me how to write an email or file a paper! ;)

Bittersweet

Friday was my last day at the Courthouse in Provo! I am really praying that this is only a temporary transfer up to American Fork, but I am not so sure about that! The "wall" came down hard the night before and the morning of. I texted Debbie on my way to work Friday and the only advice she gave me was not to cry! I made it through the day and as long as I didn't think about it the eyes stayed dry! At about 5:05 the first tear came and was quickly wiped away! It wasn't until my supervisor and I being the last people in the building ( A very common occurence) sat down at the end of the day to update my file that it really hit! She started the "final paperwork" and I started tearing up! It was a rough one for both of us! It totally sucks that this is happening but there really is nothing I can do to avoid it! So we finished the technicalities and that was it! I called Debbie on my way home and broke down completley! Here is a look back at some of the festivities of my last week in Provo! I am really going to miss everyone so much! They really are some of my best friends and I am never going to forget them!

I can Relax now For a Minute

Oh man so the LSAT is officially over and out of my life forever! I will NEVER take it again! I can finally breathe and not think about having to sit through another 4 hours! Now if only I was completley done with the entire process. I am frantically trying to finish all my applications and write a personal statement that will wow the admissions committees at about 10 different schools! I really hope that I did better this time around and I am trying to stay optimistic that I will get accepted to law school somewhere in the United States Of America! As of now I am really hoping for UNLV, University of Arizona, Utah, or one of the many So Cal schools I am applying to! So that will be my life for the next week or so. I have one week left in Provo at the courthouse and then I will be starting my long trek up to American Fork! YIKES!!! I am still not sure about this but I am going to "buck up" as Debbie reminded me to do this morning and get er done!

BREAK And Update

Ok so I need a much needed break from LSAT studying so I figured I would write a blog. It has been a little bit and well it was time! I take the LSAT on Saturday morning at 8am, so after that I will be returning a ton of calls and being a better friend then I have been this last little while. I guess the biggest news of the week is that as predicted I am transferring to American Fork. No joke I was at work for probably 2 hours when I got pulled in to "talk". They gave me a sob story about how the girl who should be going has a young son, lives in Nephi and carpools to Provo with her sister. I caved quick and said I would take one for the team and move, BUT they will be paying my mileage to and from AF until an opening comes in Provo and I can come back, or I leave for Law School which is much more likely. I wish I could say I was excited about the move but I would be lieing, I don't want to go but it was either step up and take it or be forced into it. I am really going to miss everything about Provo. The comp hours, the short travel time, the crazy and interesting people, and mostly my Friends I have made since I worked there. I remember when I started I didn't think I would ever have any friends at work (besides Marissa) but I have made some friends that I hope and know will always be there! Heck I may even work with some of them again following Law school. So yeah I start in American Fork on Monday the 11th and I am just going to try and remain positive and remember that everything happens for a reason!

Developments

Ok first an update, My Mom is doing good. She was released from the hospital on Tuesday night and it is good to have her home! She of course went back to work first thing Wednesday morning! She is a crazy bird! I have had a fun time hanging out and visiting! Work has been a very interesting situation and I swear that almost 75% of the freaking emloyees are bipolar and psychotic! I am not sure how many people know that I recently moved from the front counter at the court house to a judges team! I was super excited and worked on the team for a couple days before I left to come home. So when I decided to extend my time at home for the whole week I called my new supervisor and she was nice to let me extend. However she also informed me that there is an opening in the court in American Fork which I could possibly be forced to take. I am not really sure if I want to take it but I might not have a choice. Plus on top of that when I called my Supervisor she said that because of the opening in AF that voids my move to the judges team and I am officially back at the front counter when I get back to Provo. I am ok with it suprisingly. I was excited to work with a new team and get in court experience but alas it wasn't ment to be! Now I am hanging out in Fresno for a few more days and then will be shipped back to Utah at the butt crack of dawn Monday Morning! Fun times! Thank you to everyone for the thoughts, prayers, and for checking in on how my mom was doing! I am lucky to have such amazing friends!

chilling in the hospital

It has been awhile since my last post and during my development of new year resolutions I am dedicating myself to doing better about updating the blog! I am hanging out in California this weekend again with the whole famdamily! My mom has been in the hospital for a couple weeks now and I couldn't be in Utah anymore without seeing her! So I hopped on a plane after work on Friday and headed home! Mom is doing pretty good but the doctors are still fighting about surgery verses no surgery! I swear one of her doctors thinks he is god and he is allmighty and powerful and well he isn't! I want to kick him and tell him to shut up and sign the paper! So yeah I am chilling in Fresno at the hospital and will be heading back to Utah late tomorrow night unless things happen then I will go back sometime! It is times like this that I wonder why I am in Utah! But I know that Utah is where I am supposed to be!